This little four letter word might as well be an inappropriate word. Right up there with the other little four letter words.
I can’t tell you how many times I have been a victim to fear. I used to lie in bed at night and think of every worst-case scenario. I would imagine the man dressed in all black coming in through the window, or the fire that started in the kitchen. An earth quake. A flood. My parents getting shot. My brother being kidnapped. You know, all of those really
“good feeling” kind of stuff.
I would figure out how I would handle each scenario best. After running through as many awful situations as I could, I would eventually fall asleep– feeling like I knew how to handle each one.
Let me tell you something. None of them ever happened. Not a single one.
It went further than home though. I would fear that girls at school were thinking about me, judging me. That my teachers wouldn’t be pleased with my answers. I feared that I would disappoint my teammates and coach. I feared that the boys wouldn’t like me. That my clothes weren’t stylish enough. That my friends wouldn’t like me if they saw through me.
I feared that people wouldn’t see me for me.
I feared they would see me as a failure.
I put on a front and never let anyone see that fear or hurt. I was always “happy” and slapped a smile on my face.
But looking back, I wasn’t a failure at all. I was scared of something that didn’t exist and never will.
It wasn’t until I was 22 that someone explained fear to me.
Fear is something we create. It’s those little whispers inside us saying we’re not going to make the cut. That we should give up now because there is no way we can do it. It feels so real! That is how that sneaky little devil can squeeze it’s way into our lives and destroy us from the inside out.
My friends, you are stronger than fear. Fear isn’t real life. YOU ARE REAL LIFE. That is a fact.
Live in the here and now. Not in the what if’s.
Until next time! Let’s light up this lie. This little lie that goes by the name fear. I’ll be working on a post for monday over the weekend about the best way to fight fear– but I’m going to need your help!
Let’s hear from you! Has fear taken ahold of you before or right now? What are you most afraid of? Have you found a way to fight fear already?